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Monday, September 24, 2012

The end of a LOOOONG weekend.

I've really been neglecting this blog lately. Things have been insanely busy for both Loujo and I. To start things off we moved into a house last weekend which was a bit harder than we thought it would be. You never really realize how much stuff you have until you move. I figured we could have THAT much stuff in a one bedroom apartment. Wrong. So the majority of last weekend was spent packing and unpacking.
Then Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday was the Opening the Heavens conference at Church. It was amazing! I really feel the pull of the Holy Spirit to do more. I'm not quite sure where he's pulling me though.
A few months ago I had thought that I was called to the Children's ministry because after all, I love kids! It was decided that I would be in the 2 year old room and I thought I could handle it. After about 3 weeks of feeling inadequite because I didn't have that "mommy voice" that the little kids would actually listen to I became very frustrated and upset. I began to ponder quitting. So I did. I carry so much guilt about it. I feel like I failed God and I feel like I failed those adorable little kiddies.
I guess I'm just at a point now where I'm not sure what to do? Do I go back to the kid's ministry and ask to be placed in a different age group? Do I try to go back to the 2 year old class and trust that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, even if that means changing some poopy diapers? I'm going to have to keep praying about it because I dont want to fail God again and I don't want to fail those sweet babies. They deserve a teacher who's going to be there with their whole heart.
God is also working on my heart in something else as well. Foster Care. It has been on my heart for awhile now but since we were living in an apartment before it just wasnt possible for us. Now that we have a 3 bedroom house I find myself thinking about it more and more. I just want to make sure I'm doing what God wants me to do. Tomorrow my sweet hubby and I are going to an information meeting about Foster Care in Nebraska so we shall see how that goes. I'm just praying that the Lord would make his will known. Please friends, pray that we would hear the Lords voice so strongly when it comes to Foster Care for us. I just don't want to make the wrong decision.

1 comment:

  1. I am so excited you found me, I am loving what you're saying! I teach 5 year olds at church and I can understand the two year olds being difficult. It's completely up to you, but I say give yourself a little more time with the young ones. When I first worked at a daycare, I was petrified at the idea of taking care of young babies. Little did I know once you relax and just show them love and play, they'll be fine. :) And then if you realized it wasn't for you, try a different age group. As far as fostering, that's a huge decision and blessing. I pray whatever decision you and the hubby make it's from the heart and with lots of prayer. He will guide you! <3