Then Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday was the Opening the Heavens conference at Church. It was amazing! I really feel the pull of the Holy Spirit to do more. I'm not quite sure where he's pulling me though.
A few months ago I had thought that I was called to the Children's ministry because after all, I love kids! It was decided that I would be in the 2 year old room and I thought I could handle it. After about 3 weeks of feeling inadequite because I didn't have that "mommy voice" that the little kids would actually listen to I became very frustrated and upset. I began to ponder quitting. So I did. I carry so much guilt about it. I feel like I failed God and I feel like I failed those adorable little kiddies.
I guess I'm just at a point now where I'm not sure what to do? Do I go back to the kid's ministry and ask to be placed in a different age group? Do I try to go back to the 2 year old class and trust that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, even if that means changing some poopy diapers? I'm going to have to keep praying about it because I dont want to fail God again and I don't want to fail those sweet babies. They deserve a teacher who's going to be there with their whole heart.
God is also working on my heart in something else as well. Foster Care. It has been on my heart for awhile now but since we were living in an apartment before it just wasnt possible for us. Now that we have a 3 bedroom house I find myself thinking about it more and more. I just want to make sure I'm doing what God wants me to do. Tomorrow my sweet hubby and I are going to an information meeting about Foster Care in Nebraska so we shall see how that goes. I'm just praying that the Lord would make his will known. Please friends, pray that we would hear the Lords voice so strongly when it comes to Foster Care for us. I just don't want to make the wrong decision.