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Monday, February 4, 2013

Honor.


Proverbs 31:10 A capable, intelligent, and [b]virtuous woman—who is he who can find her? She is far more precious than jewels and her value is far above rubies or pearls.
11 The heart of her husband trusts in her confidently and relies on and believes in her securely, so that he has no lack of [honest] gain or need of [dishonest] spoil.
12 She comforts, encourages, and does him only good as long as there is life within her....

26 She opens her mouth in skillful and godly Wisdom, and on her tongue is the law of kindness [giving counsel and instruction].
27 She looks well to how things go in her household, and the bread of idleness (gossip, discontent, and self-pity) she will not eat.
28 Her children rise up and call her blessed (happy, fortunate, and to be envied); and her husband boasts of and praises her, [saying],
29 [c]Many daughters have done virtuously, nobly, and well [with the strength of character that is steadfast in goodness], but you excel them all.
30 Charm and grace are deceptive, and beauty is vain [because it is not lasting], but a woman who reverently and worshipfully fears the Lord, she shall be praised!
31 Give her of the fruit of her hands, and let her own works praise her in the gates [of the city]!

These verses have always spoken to me. This is the kind of wife and mother I want to be. It all goes back to honor I think.
Do I show honor? Not nearly as much as I should. I constantly catch myself being disrespectful to my husband, my sweet husband who does not deserve it.
I've stuggled with anger for as long as I can remember. It's one of my biggest battles today. I lash out so easily at the ones I love the most.

Now that I'm pregnant with this sweet babe I think I'm more aware of my behavior more than i've ever been because I don't want my child to see me behaving this way and emulate the way I am. How can I teach my son or daughter to honor their daddy when they see me showing dishonor to my husband?

It has to stop. I won't settle for being this way.
If my God can perform miracles, heal the sick, and raise the dead then surely, surely he can heal me of my anger. He can show me how to be a honorable wife.

I don't think it's any coincidence that my Pastor has preached on honor the past two Sundays. I've felt very convicted and I know it's time to change. Even now it's hard for me to write this out because I don't want to look like a horrible wife, because that's how I feel alot of the time. I just felt it was important to write this out because I'm thinking this blog can keep me accountable.
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Heavenly Father,
I'm so tired of carrying this burden of anger around. I know that you can change me, Lord. I'm confident in that fact. I'm not giving up until I see a change in me-until I see breakthrough. You are the Lord of the breakthrough. Teach me, Lord. I want to be used by you! Please show me how to be an honorable wife and mother.

I love you Lord.
In Jesus' Name, Amen.

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I'm linking up with Shannon at Imperfectly Perfect Grace. http://imperfectlyperfectgrace.blogspot.com/2013/02/the-list-marriage-link-up.html

6 comments:

  1. Hi, Great post. I found you through the give a way.Now following you.Please stop by and say hi when you get a chance.
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  2. Hey Sarah, I'm in the same boat as you. There are times when my emotions get the best of me and I find myself saying something I wished I hadn't or acting in a way that I know is not fitting of a wife, especially a godly wife striving to be like a proverbs 31 woman. I think we all have our bad moments but that doesn't make us bad wives. The weird (for lack of a better term) kind of blessing in marriage is that it uncovers all those issues we may have thought we had under control or resolved before we wed and forces us to deal with them for the sake of our marriage. It really is a growing process. I'll keep you in my prayers, I know exactly how you feel :)

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  3. Aw girl! you are such a great wife & mother!! <3 x0x0 Love this post!
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  4. Thank you for being so open and honest...I honestly have this same think going on. I often react in ways that are not very loving :( and know that it's not ok. I'm sure that you are such a joy and blessing to your husband despite this little flaw that God is so going to work out for you and release you from.

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  5. Thank you so much for sharing your heart! I think we've all been there, done that! God is doing a work in all of us, and as long as we are working towards better, i think we are honoring both God and our husbands:)

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  6. I love reading your posts because you are so honest! Girl, I struggle with this so much as well. I didn't even know I had it in me to say the things I sometimes say to my husband when I am angry at him or upset about something. You are SO not alone, and your heart is in such a good place, holding onto the promise that GOD can and will change you. Also, you're a great wife.. your husband thinks so.. I am sure of it! :)

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